napagalitan ko kasi si Anea kanina habang hinihintay namin
yung school service nyang dumating.
pano ba naman.
nakita kong gumagawa ng assignment sa hagdan.
nakalimutan daw niyang gawin nung kinagabihan.
eh, wala naman syang ginawa nung gabi.
nanood lang ng tv at nag-computer.
ayokong-ayoko kasing makaugalian niyang mag-cram.
pinapalaki ko kasi siyang responsible for all her actions.
i rarely ask her if she has an assignment.
i want her to accept and learn that she can do things on her own.
that everything has consequences.
the fact that she dropped from Top 1 to 2. it means only two things.
she's slacking, or her classmates are being diligent.
As her birthday wish, she said sana na maging honor sya.
i told her... how can you attain that, if you're not studying?
naaasar ako kasi ayoko syang makikitang umiiyak.
naaasar ako kasi kaya siya umiiyak kasi pinapagalitan ko sya.
naaasar ako kasi i might be pressuring her into doing too much.
That she couldn't handle my high expectations of her.
naaasar ako 'coz i might not be doing something right.
she's growing up a little
bitchy and naughty and bratty and hard-headed.
i don't like it.
but i don't know how to control it.
if i get at mad her all the time, maybe....
and if i let it go, maybe....
i really don't know how to be a mother.
but come to think of it, all mothers have faced this dilemma once in their lives.
i just wish that i overcome this.
i wish she's smiling when i get home.
Keiko, it's not my fault.
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