Monday, January 31, 2005

My daughter and I agreed to go on a diet.

Yesterday when we attended Mass, I noticed that Anea is having difficulty in walking. My mom and I thought that this might be because she is overweight, and most of it is concentrated on her tummy. She's also developing stretchmarks on her legs.

Anea wasn't fat early on. We were having difficulty before on how to make her gain weight. It seemed that all the supplements we tried turned futile, until we found the secret of our helper, Archie's, tinola.

It may seem funny, but yes, Anea was so addicted to the tinolang manok that she became fat... and fatter... and fatter...

Now, it isn't funny anymore.

So we made a pact that she will try to lose weight. And she said she will if I will. And to make her feel good about everything, I said ok. I want her to feel that I am supportive of her in this endeavor.

We will not follow a specific diet plan like Atkins or Southbeach or whatever. Our goal is to increase metabolism, the natural way. And to have some physical activity even once a week like badminton.

For starters, I just told her to lay off too much carbo like rice, and sweets, and soda. After work, I'm going to the supermarket to buy some fruits and cereal and whatnots and a new thermos for school, which will be filled with just... WATER.

She doesn't go to school with just water. She wants either juice or a chocolate drink like Milo.

I have searched the internet with tips on how to increase metabolism, and they are fairly easy. I just hope that she will succeed, even if I don't, hehehe, in this task.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

a princess all the way.

Last night, Anea and I watched reruns of Anne Hathaway's movies--Princess Diaries 1 & 2, and Ella Enchanted--much to my mom's chagrin. I think she thinks I'm too old to be watching teen flicks.

Well, I do... and I love them.

I've said before and I'll say it now. I relish in the fact that there might be happy-ever-afters. That's why I don't watch movies that does not have a happy ending. I watch movies to relax and feel good anyway. Although I'm also a fan of sci-fi and the lot, but I hate love stories with sad endings. Much less stories without endings. You know, the kind na bitin?

So, there I was reliving Amelia Mignonette Renaldi's life... and I remember my childhood days... when I was once... a PRINCESS.

Being the only girl among three siblings and the youngest at that, gave me nice privileges. Bossing around your big brothers top them all. Haha. It's nice when you can just give them the im-gonna-tell-dad look and they cringe with fear.

'Course I also cringe whenever they have this do-i-look-like-i-care-about-to-pounce-on-ya stance.

There's also the issue being close to Mom. We sorta have this Saturday girls-only thing. And me being her only daughter, girls-only's members are just me, and her.

There were times that I wish I had a sister... but girls-only outings are not those times. I'm happy that my mom's attention (and purse) was centered only to me .

I rarely go home without packages. But since I was a child I was never the brands type. And I don't ask her for clothes and shoes. Even a piece of cute stationery will bring smiles to my flat face.

Oh. And then there's Dad. He worked for Manila Zoo before as payroll clerk (i think). He usually brings me there to play. Of course, backstage access to all the lions and snakes were pretty superb. There was this entrance to the back of the lion's cages, and it's a riot there. As soon as you enter, all the lions will just go wild and roar their hearts out.

The Manila Zoo experience was super nice. The family made friends there. Comes my next point. I was not only a princess to my family, but also to my Mom and Dad's friends.

I remember my Tito Sinoc always brings me food! He made me eat balut, and made me touch all kinds of animals there, including a baby lion and a huge python. So when he died I couldn't help but cry when his wife told me that Tito Sinoc always tell her stories about me, and what I ate when I was in the zoo.

My Tito Elmer taught me how to blend colors with my crayons. Tito Fred always took my pictures. Tito Odik made me eat those exotic dishes. Tito Oyie, the vet, gives me candies and showed me EVERYTHING in the zoo. Backstage pass and all!

My mom's friends though, taught me how to eat in a hotel and showed me what it feels like to ride in a Benz, and eat Japanese and Chinese food. Haha.

Mom and Dad's friends are oil and water to me. That's why I grew up to be like this... DIVERSE. And I love being me.

Hay... my childhood days were so much fun. But then, growing up was a pain. Haha. Oh well. We can't have it all.

Sabi nga ni Augee: "Such is life..."

And we can't have too many princesses.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

maganda ako.



last Sunday since we have nothing else to do, and Dale was sick, i went to the drugstore to buy a bottle of paracetamol. i also bought a, well, err...a nosepack. haha.

Anea and I were talking about it way back 'coz she's developing blackheads on the sides of her nose... well, i thought that maybe those were just short hairs, but...

so, i placed the white goo on her nose and after a few minutes peeled it off. She said 'ouch' about five times.

And there they were.... HAIRS!

Dozens and dozens of tiny black hairs. They were like a congregation of hairs all around the white stuff. It was icky.

So, she's now walking around with a new hair-free nose.

I also tried it on, obviously. And I went on smoothing the goo on my nose down to my cheeks... hahaha.

It was cold! And it hurt when i took it off.

Yep. There was nothing on it 'cept for miniscule hairs, that I can count with my fingers. Unlike Anea's icky white stuff.

Oh well.

So much for beauty regimen no. 1.

should have posted this days ago.

My mom, Anea and I watched 'Meet The Fockers' on Saturday. It was hilarious, and Barbara Streisand did well for her part. Although, there were a lot of questions during and after the movie coming from Anea. Haha.

We ate at Jollibee afterwards. There I was eating my salad when I notice this hair sticking out of it. Talk about major Ew! So I called a crew and showed him it, and I pulled the hair from the salad and good Lowrd! It was long and curly! Yuckers. Lost my appetite.

And the young guy didn't even apologize. So I demanded a manager and told him off.

Point is... since I worked for a customer service oriented company and after hours listening and reading to consumers yack about service, I finally learned how to be the one yacking. It's disgusting.

Monday, January 24, 2005

nanganak na si Keiko

naks! congratulations... welcome to never-ending cries, perpetual waking up during the wee hours of the night, numerous diaper changes, and the blues... hahaha....

keiko gave birth to a cute (sabi niya, syempre naman.) 5.5 lb baby girl Saturday at 10pm via normal delivery.

way to go, keiko!

mood: inuubo. inis!
listening to: Basti's playlist
prayer: good Lowrd! not agen!

Thursday, January 20, 2005

la lang.

nag-leave ako sa opisina kahapon kasi nag-text sa kin yung helper namin na may seminar daw sa school nila Dale at dapat daw eh, parents ang umattend. pagdating ko dun, sabi nung isang teacher: "ma'am, bakit andito ka eh dapat nga ikaw pa nagse-seminar sa min eh." ang topic: Autism.

sus.

pero i stayed pa rin, syempre andun na ko. at yung isa namang naging titser ng anak ko, sabay lapit sa kin na magbigay daw ako ng on-the-spot testimonial. ayoko sana, kasi i always end up crying when i talk about Dale. On the spot pa. di ako ready!!! hehe.

true enough, naiyak ako. at napaiyak ko half ng mga taong umattend.

putek.

pag-uwi ko sa bahay, natulog na lang ako. katabi ko si Anton at Anea. As usual, si Kuya Dale nag-computer maghapon. galit pa yun nung gabi na at turn na raw niya sa computer. addict!

nagpunta sa bahay si Dada to spend some time with me and the kids. Dala-dala niya yung digicam kasi si Aga, Charlene at ang kanilang twins eh nag-shoot ng commercial sa store nila sa BF. Pinakita niya sa kin yung videos and pictures na kinunan nila. kakatawa. umuwi din siya after niya kumain.

si Keiko nag-halfday ngayon kasi nagpa-checkup sa doctor. i'm guessing na this week manganganak na sya. excited na ko. hehe.

nway, wala lang... nawalan na rin kasi ako ng magandang maisusulat. tinatamad na akong mag-blog. how sad.

inuubo na naman ako. tumataba lalo. inaantok.

bow. wow. wow.

Monday, January 17, 2005

birthday ni anton ngayon

pero kahapon kami naghanda. ang nakakatawa, si mama, niregaluhan na sya ng yakult, tapos si Joanne, binigyan din sya ng.... tantararan....!!!!

100 pieces na yakult.

tapos dumating tita ko, yakult din ang dala.

bakit kanyo? eh pano, pde ng endorser si Anton ng yakult. yung isang pack, kalahating araw niya lang yun iinumin... kaya yung ref namin, literal na imbakan ng yakult.

kaya pala malikot. active ang lacto-cherba sa tyan.

happy 4th birthday, my bebeh....

Rhett Miller - Come Around

I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart

I'm depressed upstairs
And I'm remembering where
And when, and how, and why
You have to go so far

Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around

I'm dressed all in white
And I remember the night
You came on to me
And opened up my heart

I was hollow then
'Til you filled me in

Now I'm empty again
I should have never let it start

Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around

No one else can fix me
Although sometimes my heart tricks me
Into thinking someone else will do
But you're the only one
You are the only one


Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
So come around
So come around

I'm dressed all in blue
And I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore
When you broke my heart

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

an open letter to my relatives

tish, musta na si Ted? Anea got sick for 2 days din. She went back to school today. Vhon also. Chad is currently sick with what the doctor said was just flu. Everybody was sick during the holidays with cough and colds, even my dad.

Anea is still doing well in school. I hope that the 2 days that she was not able to come in won't affect it. She came in second the last time, and we're wishing for the same or better levels this quarter. She's still overweight, and it's starting to piss me off. I don't want her to have health problems. Although there's this one thing that I won't mention here for her privacy, that she promised me as a New Year's resolution that she will start doing, and so far, she's been successful in doing so. Yey!

However, she still makes me angry every morning 'coz she is NOT a morning person and she greets the day with a frown... and feet-stomping madness... whenever she's dressing up for school. She still can carry her hair like it resembles Sadako from the Ring (pisses me off). She still does her homework and projects on the last minute possible, and the reason i get angry about this is because she is getting to be just like me on this aspect and i don't want her to be. She's the last-minute girl who rarely opens her books and can achieve a 50/50 score in Math. How she does that is beyond me. Nope, actually I know how she does that. She does not need to do anything 'coz she is born smart. BUT! Not mom-like smart, but dad-like smart... and that truly pisses me off. =)

Arolf, on the other hand, is getting so makulit. Anea is the only one who can definitely understand what he's saying now... He talks too much in such fast gibberish taglish that it gets so frustrating to understand to find out what he wants. I'm praying that this will change before school's out so we can get a recommendation from the SPED school to transfer him to a regular school next school year.

Anton is still the same Anton. My feelings for Anton is a mixture of utter bewilderment and perpetual madness. I dunno what to do with him most of the time, but his nuggets of wisdom can make my jaw drop lots of times in one conversation. At least he now knows that the color blue is... blue. We have to concentrate on teaching him the ABCs and the numbers 'coz... he still doesn't know which is which. I'm praying like crazy that he'll get it through his cute head that one is not 7, and that H is not A. No, he's not dyslexic. He's just... it's just that he doesn't want anyone else to tell him any different, that's all. From which side of the family did he get that attitude? No, not family... I can just pin that to one person, and that's my mother. =)

Ronald is still with Jollibee BF as store manager. He just accepted an award of some sort. One Area Manager already promised him that another promotion will soon come for him if he keeps doing good in his job. He's still crazy over his car. Just recently I discovered that he's got OC (obsessive-compulsive) disorder. Of course, not clinically positive about it, but the signs were everywhere. He admitted that to me. I discovered that when I accidentally left fingerprints on the windshield of his car. He stopped the car and wiped them off. He said he just couldn't drive and does not feel comfortable seeing prints or dirt on his car. I found that disturbing, and began asking him about other things that he felt uncomfortable of.

Of course, it was not something to be paranoid about. A lot of people have this 'disorder.' Everybody has some kind of brain and emotion 'malfunction' in one point of his/her life.

My solution to that was randomly and repeatedly leaving footprints and fingerprints all over his car, to which he just whined "Ma naman eh..." while I laugh and giggle on our way to the grocery store, to which he just stops the car and wipes them off again and kisses me right smack on the lips. Mind you, he did not get angry, which is a big improvement.

I'm still working for PeopleSupport, and I plan to get a teaching job this year. Wishing that I'll get one with a great salary, too. I'm also planning to finish my masters in UP and planning to enroll this June. I wish that I still can, 'coz i had problems with one subject there. If not, i can enroll in PNU for that, but my friends already told me that PNU can't be compared to UP even in hindsight.

A lot of people have been asking me of how I feel now that my parents are going away, and I can't find myself to tell them exactly how I feel. Let me express them here in one way or another.

My mother is starting to work harder 'coz she wants to acquire money to use when they get to New York. Yes, they decided to go to New York rather than L.A. 'coz Daddy's brothers and sisters are all there. They said that getting jobs there are easier than in LA.

She's beginning to deligate stuff and responsibilities to us, and this makes me sad and makes me dread the day that they will leave. Although, I am happy that they have a chance to try to live differently away from the chaos which we call Arolf and Anton in disguise. =)

A lot will change when they leave, but this can only be seen as an opportunity to live a different life, even if there is no certainty of green pastures or milk and honey. At least they have tried. Nothing will be lost since we'll still be waiting for them here if ever they change their minds and decide that they can take the chaos here more than the loneliness they can feel when they are away from us. (hehe.)

At first, I felt really sad when I knew that their visas came. It meant only one thing for me. Being alone with no one to back me up in times of need. But it also means that I'm drowning in paranoia. Of course i will not be alone. I still have my brothers. And it's not like they left the planet. New York is just a plane ride away. In this technology-driven world, I don't think that getting in touch with them will be a problem.

I'm also thinking about how my kids will handle my parents going away. Now that they know that their grandparents are leaving, Anton is starting to say that only Papa can go, and Mama is staying behind. I don't think that Arolf can handle this easily, since he is too attached to Daddy. He said that he wants to go with them, but when he found out that it will take a plane ride, he changed his mind. I cannot imagine how i can explain it to them that eventhough my folks aren't here we can still see them on the computer (YM). A 6-yr-old kid with autism and a sweet 4-yr-old can only take too much.

But still, I want my parents to go, and at least have a second honeymoon, if ever they had a first. hehe. I also see it as an opportunity for me to grow and be dependent and responsible. For 30 years, my parents have been my backbone and it's about time for me to veer away from parasitism. I will take this as an opportunity and not a burden to carry. I know that bills will pile up. I know that I will feel helpless in the future, but I am positive that I will find a way.

Being the great parents that they are, they are still thinking of us before they leave. Mama does not want to leave us hanging without resources. They want everyone to be secure with a roof on our heads, and healthcards and ways for paying the humongous bills that we receive month-end. Mama does not think of us only, but also her brothers and sisters. They are making sure that we know how to live without them near, and for that I am extremely grateful.

There's just one thing that I ask God for... that He makes sure that my folks will be safe and healthy wherever they are. That they won't get caught jaywalking, or be caught in heavy traffic while going to work, or be left without choices.

And to everybody there, if there's one thing that I ask of you, it's to please take care of my parents for Rodel, Erick, and me. God cannot look after them all the time.

Happy New Year everyone.

Friday, January 07, 2005

my family

New Year 2005

A Promise I Make

DadaYou're every breath I take
Your love rules every move I make
And I know that you can't read my mind
And baby, maybe I...

Don't say it as often as I should
But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you

You, you take this heart of mine
And make it better I need you to
Come and walk with me through this life forever
And I know these words are long overdue
And baby, maybe I...

Don't say it as often as I should
But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you

I may hold you
I may need you
I may want to
And baby, maybe I

Don't say it as often as I should
But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you

A promise I make to you
A promise I make to you

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

naman...

i got this from hanagirl's blog.

I am worth $1,430,058.00 on HumanForSale.com

para namang may gustong bumili sa kin....

going once...

going twice...

gone.

Monday, January 03, 2005

my three main reasons for breathing

Anea's cute drawing


There might have been a lot of heartaches the year that was... but no matter how hard it was... no matter how much pain everything and everybody inflicted on me... no matter how many days i cried myself to sleep...

i remained strong... i remained alive... i breathed.