Thursday, November 29, 2007

bakit mapanghi sa Pinas?

Ang hipag ko nagtitinda ngayon sa labas ng Ospital ng Maynila. Nagkaron sila ng parang tiangge, to cover their Christmas party celebration. Ang bayad is 200 bucks lang a day.

So, since may balak akong magbusiness next year dito sa bagong mall namin sa Pasay (next year pa siya magagawa), I decided to go there and make bantay din. I learned how to put up all the stuff, how to take it down, what the market there wants... ganun.

Masaya siya, lalo na pag may nabili na. I went home din around lunch. I went back around 4, with Tony, to see nga how it would close. Eh si Tony, nawiwiwi... Ngek! Akyat kami sa hospital. Ang mamang gard, tinanong kami, san daw kami... sabi ko baka po pwedeng maki-CR lang kasi nawiwiwi na yung bata.

At ang sagot ng mamang gard?

"Dyan sa labas! Paihiin mo dyan!"

Po?

"Oo! Dyan o... maghanap ka ng butas dyan sa gilid... o kaya dyan lang sa baba... paihiin mo... sus."

gusto ko siyang sakalin. gusto kong sabihing... "at kung tatae po ba, sa baba na rin patataihin?!" sampal ko sayo tong bag ko eh.

hay... kung wala ka lang baril.

Thank God for Caltex.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

hoy



¡Fuimos sorprendidos hoy porque teníamos
dos examinaciones! ¡Dos veses! ¡Dos! *huhuhuhu*

Era afortunado yo pasé la prueba en uno. Cuarenta y seis sobre de sesenta. *whew* Todavía no sé con el otro. Sabré el jueves.

Ahora nos preocupamos de la prueba de diciembre el 11. ¡Tengo que estudiar siempre! *hay....*

¡Qué rollo!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

why daughters get in trouble with their mothers...

papunta kami ng Waltermart kahapon, at bago pumasok, sabi ko kay Anea:

"Anak, this might be the most important lesson a mother can give to her child--do not enter in the door marked as EXIT, and do not go out of the door marked ENTRANCE. Wag kang gagaya sa Lola mo, para may smooth flow sa Pilipinas."

nung papasok kami ng supermarket and we have to leave our baggages in the baggage counter, I was looking somewhere else while falling in line, so, I wasn't paying attention, thus:

"Mommy, this might be the most important lesson a daughter can give to a mother--do not leave your baggages in the CLAIM section..."

my killer stare made her stop talking.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

historias a decir

almost a week of being silent... =)

no me siento bien. tenía gripe... tengo una tos terrible!

yan na yung short story.

kasi it was a busy week... tapos lagi pang naulan sa hapon... malamig pa sa Waltermart, ang aming bagong tambayan ng nanay ko. We found out na yung sinehan sa Waltermart ay parang mas ok pa sa Glorietta. Napanood na namin ang The Game Plan, Beowulf, and One More Chance (yes, and it's my mom's choice, not mine) dun... Medyo complete na rin naman dun... may Robinson's, Jollibee, Starbucks...

I also attended the orientation/seminar for the volunteer thing in Don Bosco with my niece, Aileen. 1-7pm yun, and it was very informative. We learned a lot. There were different areas to choose from--Adult services, food, raffle, registration, clowns... but, we chose to be Caregivers on December 2. Actually, I wanted to be in the easier areas, but my niece wanted to be a Caregiver, for her to really experience it daw. Exciting! I just hope the kids that will be assigned to us will not be any trouble than what I go through with Dale everyday. and if caregiving proves to be difficult, then we'll go to different areas next year. that is, if I can do it again next year. *hahaha*

If you are serious with volunteering, there is a program for it, you will be trained for 10 Sundays, then your culminating activity is an all-expenses paid trip to Vigan in April to be a caregiver as well, for their Summer Camp. And hindi siya basta-basta ha... ang tindi ng selection process nila. As in.

anyway, back to being sick... the last straw, i guess, was when Ronald picked us up last Sunday from Harrison... Mom, Anea, and I were there to do some shopping for school supplies, and while Mom was in the Chapel to hear Mass, Anea and I decided to try out Goldilock's Decorate a cake promo. It costs 50 bucks only, with the following items:

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and this is how my cake turned out:

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yes, it was lopsided. and it wouldn't pass Heny Sison's standards, but at least it's still pretty. *hehe*

anea's turned out okay (okay, it didn't! mana siya sa dad niya... haha.), she made her icing pink! which i didn't think of. i wasn't able to take a picture of it, though. i'd love to do that again some time.

entonces, we did some shopping again after (no, we are not rich or people who shops coz we're bored... we just need to restock some necessities)... i was pagod, and then super lamig sa car (#1 lang yun)... i woke up at 2AM shivering already. nilalagnat na ko.

i wasn't supposed to go to class today, kaso lang i thought i'm gonna be absent na on Thursday coz we have a conference with Dale's teachers that day. pero naalala ko, my class is now in the morning! hah! i forgot.. dati kasi hapon ang class ko and hapon din ang conference. so, i guess i can come to class pa rin, but i have to go directly to Dale's school after.

bueno, i was in class today... my prof was like "oh... pobresita....
¿tomó vitamina C?"

i'm beginning to wonder if my pipes are starting to bleed already, coz it hurts a lot... as in... hirap magsalita... ¡qué terrible!

yes, i'm taking in vitamin C--all natural. tons of Dalandan juice and eating lots of Ponkan. coz i hate pills! i've been taking pills ever since i can remember. everyone here is also coughing badly, already. at least Tony's nose is not bleeding anymore. it did, twice, kasi. buti na lang ako lang yung nilagnat... sila kasi ubo at sipon lang.

what bums me is that the PC is busted! again. hah! kainis. kasi it means that they are gonna use my laptop. eh takot ko nga kanina coz when i turned it on, tumunog pa... kala ko kung ano na... at ayaw pang mag-charge! kinabahan talaga ako... i tried it on a different socket, nagcharge naman siya. hm... ano naman kayang sumpong meron to.

what's nice naman is that I got my kid's report cards already... and the surprise was Tony's. From last quarter's Top 10 slot, he's now in Top 3.


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ang laki ng tinaas niya, huh! Siya din ang Outstanding student sa Filipino. It wasn't enough to earn him a place in the honor roll, but it's enough for us. To think that we thought he'll have a hard time coz he doesn't know how to read yet when he enrolled.

Anea, is still Top 1. She went up from being 5th Honor, to 4th. Pareho sila ng bestfriend niyang si Jude. Kasama na siya sa Excellence Exam for honors next quarter. At least she'll have a place in the roll when she graduates from Elementary. We are hoping that she goes up pa rin.. mataas akong mangarap eh. *haha*

Sad was Dale's. Hay... first time niyang magkaron ng 77. Both in Filipino and Sibika. Syempre naman... Tagalog subjects. He hates it daw. All of his grades bumaba coz of his tantrums the past few weeks. Hindi siya nagsusulat, nakikinig... Kanina when we were studying for his long test this quarter, hindi niya talaga naiintindihan mga sinasabi ko in Tagalog. Hindi ko tuloy siya masisi bakit puro pasang awa mga exams niya sa Tagalog subjects niya. So, kanina, i was translating everything we were reading. I was also correcting his pronunciation and intonation. He was reading Tagalog words kasi like in English eh... he's super slang. I just wish that he does better this quarter.

well, then.... stories are done... i have to go back to sleep now... Grrr! i can't talk! ouch!


Saturday, November 10, 2007

Tony Chronicles part 3

Field trip ng Grade 1 San Isidro students, at kasama siyempre ang aking anak na si Anton. Well, well, well... good luck, di ba?

Mabait naman siya during the trip since kinausap ko siya before we went na hindi niya ako pwedeng pagurin coz alam naman niya na sick ako at madali akong mapagod lalo na kung hahabulin ko siya.

First stop was Avilon Zoo. It was nice coz there were a lot of animals na hindi mo na makikita talaga sa Manila Zoo. The problem lang was that my darn batteries won't work na naman... i charged them full naman last night... so, ayun! fonecam. when we got to a souvenir shop, i bought na lang batteries for 50 each. Kainis din coz tour ito, and we couldn't stay long in a certain place. We had to keep moving, so, ang kinalabasan.. bad pictures! Di bale na... importante naman is Anton had fun. I texted my mom pa nga pala:

Ako: Kainis! Chinarge ko naman yung batt kagabi, ayaw na naman umandar nung cam!

Mama: Tapon na yan! Bili na lang tayong bagong tig-1M.

Ako: Oo nga eh. Sabi ko sayo bilhin na natin yung Lumix na tig-30k sa Anson's eh.

Mama: Utot!

Ayus, noh?! Gusto tig-isang milyon, ayaw ng tig-30k lang. Alam na natin kung kanino nagmana si Anton.

Well, after ng Avilon, punta kaming 9 Waves. (After that, sa isang pagawaan ng sapatos sa Marikina.) On the way sa 9 Waves, pansin ko parang tutuka-tuka na ulo ni Anton.

Ako: Tulog ka muna.

Anton: Yoko. (yawn)

Ako: Sige na. Malayo pa naman ata eh. Tulog ka muna.

Anton: Di naman ako inaantok eh. (tuka)

Ako: Ano'ng hindi, eh nabagsak na ulo mo dyan.

Anton: Hindi nga. (tingin sa labas. maya-maya, tuka)

Ako: (buntong hininga) Hay nako... tigas ng ulo... sige.. bahala ka na nga.

Anton:


Zzzzz.....




Friday, November 09, 2007

hay, Anton...


Tony was checking out my wallet kanina... inside were a set of pictures. the first one had a cut-out of Anea's ID when she was in Prep. Under her picture, there was an indication.

Tony: "Dep? Ano'ng Dep? Sa SPED si Anea, Ma?"

Ako: "Ha?! Baket?"

Tony: "Oo. Sa SPED ang Dep di ba?"

Ako: "Yung iba, oo. Pero si Ate, hinde."

Tony: "Eh bakit nakalagay dito sa ID niya, Dep siya."

Ako: "Asan? Patingin nga!"

ID: Elementary Dept.

Ako: (hagalpak ng tawa) "Ah! Dept! Department yan anak, pinaikli lang."

Tony: "Ah... akala ko naman bingi siya."


Toink!


Lipat naman siya ng picture... natapat sa picture ko at sa kabila nito, picture ulit ni Anea.

Tony: "Ano ba to... Di to mananalo sa Ms. Beautiful Philippines."

Ako: "Ano?! Sino ha?!"

Tony: "Wala..."

Ako: "Sino nga?!"

Tony: (tawa ng tawa) "Wala nga..."

Ako: "Isa..."

Tony: (tawa ulit) "Sige na nga... si Anea na nga."


Double toink!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

of nightmares and coffee (a repost)

Today, right at this moment, I'm looking at my son, Dale, sleeping soundly in my bed. In his hand was a plastic toy flower. My mom gave it to him when he had a tantrum. He wanted to buy something from the store, but sadly, the stores were closed. So, in between sobs, he slept, flower in hand.

My mom went to sleep right after. She was exhausted. Oftentimes, dealing with Dale's tantrums can be physically draining, not to mention, emotionally tiring. Mom couldn't stand it when Dale does something unusual, like look up at the ceiling and shake his head, or giggle for no apparent reason.

When I look at him like this, peacefully sleeping, I try to visualize what his dreams may be like. Does he dream at all? Does he have nightmares like we all do? If he does, what is it that he fears the most?

I wish he could tell me when he wakes up. I wish he can wake up in the middle of the night and cry and when I ask him he'll tell me, "Mamaw!", just like his brother, Anton. But there were never moments like these.

But I'm still thankful and happy, for when he's awake he can now tell me what he wants... he points, and he whispers them to me. He looks for me now when I'm not in the room, shouting "Mommy!" while going to every room.

Two days ago, he woke up at 4:30 in the morning, he tugged at my hand, and I, thinking that he had a nightmare, told him "Ssh... what is it?", and he told me...

"Coffee?"

And then I looked at my son in the dark. I thought, I was wrong. I have to be thankful if he doesn't have nightmares.

You know what my nightmares are?

They're moments that Dale wakes up in the dark, just sitting beside me, staring at me, and not telling me what he wanted because he did not know how...

And they're moments when Dale wakes up in the middle of the night asking for coffee, but couldn't find me in the dark.

I was cleaning my files, and I saw this piece at the back of some of my papers... I'm not sure when I wrote this, years ago, i think.

I still have the same nightmares now and again.

Sunday, November 04, 2007

ditto



sometimes, there are people you meet that makes you feel complete. But, there are moments when you feel like you have to leave him be. for his sake. and for yours, as well. More often than not, you don't need to tell him why.


I have known him for a few years, but I felt the need to part ways. And this time, he knows why.

It has been a few months now since we last talked. and i know, he respected my decision. and i thank him for that.

October came and then the La Naval. I kept on thinking, someone's having a birthday that day, but I couldn't point out who. Then I got to check my email, and there it was. A notification for his birthday.

I sent him an email to greet him a belated one. After a few days, he replied with this:

"thanks so much. miss na kita!"

i felt a tug. how sad. missing someone. but at least he didn't say "miss na kita...", coz it would've made me cry. You know how punctuations alter the meaning of sentences.

I answered back.

"ditto."

Days after, I kinda forgot about it already. But alas, he sent me a forwarded text message yesterday at 3 in the morning. The weird thing was, I already deleted his number from my fone. I was sure of it. I checked it again after, and it isn't there. But his name popped up. I guess my SIM still has it.

"Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to, but because we have to, because it's the right thing to do... Let us remember that we can't force anyone to love us.. We can't beg someone to stay when he/she wants to leave and be with someone else... This is what love is all about... However, the end of love is not the end of life... It should be the beginning of understanding that love leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson."

I texted him back. I greeted him a Happy Halloween and wishes God to bless him.

He replied during the night with one word.

"ditto."

that's when i cried. not when he said he misses me, not when he sent the mushy text, but when he texted with finality....

a word that would not need a reply.


a word that feels like a goodbye.

That time I decided to leave him, I thought, I was robbed of a beautiful friendship. I was robbed by circumstances beyond my control. But the truth is, I am sure that our friendship will remain, even without the words.

And if he gets to read this, I'm sure there's just one word he'll say.

Tony really scares me...



halloween scare of the year:

(placed all my hair in front of my face)


Ako: buwahahahaha! anjan na ko....

Tony: (running) Wah!!! hah!!! hah!!! SUDOKU... SUDOKU!!!!


toink!




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